I've begun a raw food diet. Today is day 2. And today, I totally caved. It's St. Patrick's Day and I work in a restaurant. The festivities and care free fun was something I couldn't help but want to enjoy. The smell of tasty food with meat and cheese just intoxicated my nostrils. The thought of going home to some raw spinach leaves, carrots, bell pepper, and sprouts with a dabble of lime juice that would leave me hungry in just one hour didn't survive the idea of a big, fat juicy burger and a side of loaded mashed potatos that would easily fill me for the rest of the evening. Now, I'm full and my taste buds are satisfied, but my stomache currently hates me.
Ultimately, my self satisfaction was greater than my desire to be healthy.
So, I started to think about this whole idea. I really need to follow through with this raw food diet - but it's the hardest, although it's probably the healthiest. I have to retrain my taste buds. These things that taste soooo good aren't always so good FOR me. So, within the confines of my eating habits, I now need to make health my ultimate, rather than my self satisfaction. And then I hear God in my head going, "Bingo!".
This totally ties in with the message we recieved at church on Sunday.
How many things in our life aren't good for us, but we do them anyway because it feels good or it's fun or it's something we've done our whole life? He made me think about how following Him isn't easy all the time, it's hard. However, if He is my ultimate, I'll stop at nothing to have Him, right? I'll press through all of the peer pressure and desires to give into my flesh. The second something else becomes ultimate in my life, God is no longer the one thing I'll do anything for. Then begins the sinning and thus follows the guilt.
So here I sit, guilty about not choosing leafy greens and some wacked out salad dressing over a burger. I didn't make health my ultimate goal today... but there's this wonderful thing called grace, and tomorrow will be a new day begining with joy in my heart.
So, what is your ultimate going to be when you wake up tomorrow?
